Wednesday, December 26, 2007

First Christmas as a Family of Three

MS first went head on into all the presents, ripping them apart like a mad woman! She had practice and grandpa & grandma's the previous day. Slowly she got tired after opening great-grandma's blanket that she made her. She cuddle up and wanted a bottle, so here you see sleepy baby instead of crazy rip open all the paper baby. It was a good day and she was definitely happy with all of her presents from everyone.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Christmas Eve @ the Parents

MS scored big with grandpa & grandma, she definiately had fun and has lots of toys to play with. I think she got tired from opening all the presents because when we got home she was pooped! She had fun though and it was great seeing her face when she finally got a present open, I love Christmas and wish it happened more often just to see the looks she gives everyone.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Little Miss Piggy

MS has managed to demolish her whole plate of food. Does this surprise, no but geez this girl can out eat me! She is weighing in at 17 lbs. 3 oz. Where does all the food go? I wish I had this girls metabolism!

Sunday, December 02, 2007

MS is dedicated

MS got dedicated tonight, I cried of course. I seriously delayed on that one, I know at times I am a bad mommy. I need to get my butt in gear!

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Did I Mention My Child Loves Church?

MS loves going to church, she loves when we all sing! She claps her hands and hums its adorable and everyone gets a kick out of her thats for sure. I love taking her to church so that I can dress her up all frilly!

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Gone Swimming or Atleast Tried

it turned out that the hotel pool was freezing and there was no way we were going to put her in it, but hey it was a good attempt to go swimming.

Friday, September 07, 2007

Eating Carrots

Yeah, feeding her carrots was a bad idea. I think her body got more of it then she did, but she liked what she did end up getting in her mouth! She is becoming a little piggy, she is gaining weight left and right! She is now up to 10 lbs. 7 oz, that is pretty good for my little turtle.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007


MS is now beginning to drink out of a sippy-cup, I feel like she is growing up way to fast. I just blinked and she is growing up, I want her to stay little forever even though I know that is impossible. If anyone comes up with a "stay little forever cure" please let me know.

Monday, September 03, 2007

Dog Is Gone

This was an everyday occurence, this would be why Fiona now has a nice home in the country with a very nice family.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

MS Swinging-Isn't she cute??

MS loves her swing and it makes mommy & daddy have a little sanity throughout their day. The swing is definitely a blessing to have, I don't know what I would do without it. M being the handyman he is rigged the swing where it actually plugs into the wall so no batteries are required, if you would like to know how this is accomplished leave a comment!

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Please Find Your Owner

Everyone knows I am a "animal" person, I genuinely love animals... I really do. M found this dog hanging around our apartment building and nice ol me said ohh lets keep it and try to find her owner-well owner is still missing in action and it looks like we just inhereted a dog, I guess thats what I get for being nice! Please welcome Fiona to the family.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Baseball Time Again

We took MS to her first baseball game, I think she had fun watching these crazy people yelling and running all over the place. That lasted about two innings and then she was out like a light bulb. Overall the two weeks of NBC were fun and they are now over, we will be joining the NBC again in another year, just something to look forward to YAY!

Friday, July 27, 2007

Closet Sale!

I have been pretty busy the past couple days cleaning. I guess I decided it was time to clean out closets. We have only been here 3 months but we have already accumlated JUNK. So I had a mini closet sale, posting things on the net, people picked them up that day and gave me money woohoo! MS is getting huge-I can't believe she is already 4 months old. Time flies by so quick.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007


We went up to Kansas City this past weekend, met M's friends from high school, I am still teasing him about getting old even though he really isn't that old, but thats okay! Got to see my froggy-friend but it wasn't long enough and that really sucked. Found a dog last night so I am busy located its owner-real sweet puppy :)

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Blue Angels In Town

We saw the air show today the Blue Angels were in town and that was a lot of fun. It was extremely hot out but thats okay, it was well worth it watching those birds soar straight into the sky, do loops, corkscrews and dive straight for you!

I dunno whats going on!

This is miss MS bathing in the sun (we went swimming for the first time)

MS is doing great that would be why I really haven't been blogging lately-I have just been playing with her a lot. I love being a parent, I wish there were more hours in the day to spend with her.

M's high school reunion is next weekend so we are going up to big city to attend that, so that will be fun (hopefully!). We are kinda having some problems now and I really just want to strangle him and tell him WAKE UP AND LOOK AROUND!!!!! Oh well thats another post for another day!

Monday, July 02, 2007

What a wild and crazy week and half. I really haven't even had time to sit down it seems like. I am always doing something or someone is needing something. I wish I could say "no" why can't I tell people now, I should have learned my lesson by now by always being the nice person and saying yeah I can do that or sure if you need that. Why can't I just be the grumpy-cranky person that nobody even asks anything of and shudder when they even think to ask me. Will I change? Probably not because I do enjoy helping others but it really is starting to impede into MY time! I will say that my new neighbors have found out pretty quickly that (a) I usually have food stocked for when THEY need something (b) I am a great babysitter (c) my husband can fix computers/phone lines/cable lines/electric wiring and more (d) we will always take you where you need to go since you don't have a vehicle (e) we will answer our phone when its 1am because you happen to think having a "crisis" is something we care to hear about.... Wow! Just reading that makes me feel somewhat bitchy and relieved... Now if I could only say that to earwax neighbor, drunk neighbor, crazy neighbor and Mr. boom boom neighbor... Today I got a note on my door from Mr. Boom Boom saying he would like to borrow the following movies-do you not have the courteous to knock on the door and ask? There wasn't even a please or thanks in advance, it was a simple demand and now I am mad about it but of course I probably won't be blunt about it because I don't want to make the neighbors mad even thought I am blunt to everyone else around me, what is it with these people that I can't be blunt or just say no? I now babysit everyday-she is a good kid though but some days I just want time to sit will my dear baby WHO IS 13 POUNDS is sleeping. Oh well I guess I can't complain too much because I am not doing anything to fix it as of right now.

I miss my froggy-friend :) I can't wait to see her on the 20Th! I miss my in-laws I haven't seen mommy-dearest in law since May and daddy-dearest in law since the end of May. So I am excited to see everyone and meet M's friends that he had in high school (it is his 10 year reunion)

M still likes his job-I like it because it finally has set hours... I guess I sorta have a job babysitting 5 days a week it isn't too bad, poor kid gets bored at my house though because I have nothing to entertain her with :(

Friday, June 22, 2007

Random Ramblings....

What do I write? I am totally at a loss for emotions let alone words. Right now life is just going, same old routine, no change, just there. Not that I am complaining I just wish I got out of my house more often. But it seems anytime I get out of the house (like yesterday) MS does something really cute and I miss it. I feel bad for missing my daughter laugh. Maybe when I have my mom watch her I will instruct her to not tell me anything she does anymore so I don't feel horrible about missing it. Maybe I just won't ever leave again so I don't miss anything, I don't know because I think I want a job, but then again I don't know. I am so indecisive lately, I don't know what my problem is lately. I am just stuck between what I think I want that day, even though I don't really want to...

I have also realized a lot of people are "friends of convenience" this has really put a damper in my day to day activities. I have done a lot for the person that I haven't known very long, I thought she was a friend. I am opening my eyes and realizing that she only comes around when she wants something or needs me to watch her kid. I have also noticed she is FULL of drama, I have my own problems people, I don't need yours! She is constantly having an problem that could be avoided if she would just think about things for once, but I don't think she has anymore brain cells left!

I have realized my mom is a fantastic person, I didn't give her enough credit for the woman she is. I used to say "I will never be like my mom" well now I am re-tracting that statement I hope I am woman enough to be just like my mom. I would be so lucky to even be half the woman that my mom is. She is totally honest, kind, caring, blunt, can take care of anything that goes wrong. My mom can paint, draw, do anything you want her to. My mom takes pride in everything she does and I just hope I become like her one day.

Friday, June 01, 2007


I really under-estimated how much a stay at home mother really does! I thought this stuff would be easy... You know watch some tv and just relax. Boy was I wrong. I am constantly cleaning and taking care of MS I hardly sit down through the day... I think having a job would be easier to do then to stay at home. It seems like nothing is ever done and I am constantly doing it over and over. I love staying home with MS but its hard!

MS is doing great, she is rolling over both ways now and starting to scoot around the house. Its hilarious! She puts her butt in the air kicks her legs and puts her head down and off she goes, maybe I can catch a picture of her doing it one of these days! I don't know how people can catch all their children's first moments I feel like such a horrible mother but by the time she is doing it I want to keep watching her instead of running for the camera... Maybe I could just attach the camera to me everyday so I could get all of those moments haha!

M is enjoying his job still despite all the idiots but I will save those stories for later, maybe when I actually have the time to sit here in type. I really should be putting away clothes but hey this girl needs a break!

My froggy-friend is coming into town tomorrow I am so excited, I haven't seen her in almost a month YAY!

I have made some new friends since being here that live across from us, its almost like New York (stereo-typed) sitting on our porch's looking at each other and talking... lots and lots of talking its great!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Everything Eventually Comes Together.... Right?

Its really hard to blog lately when life gets so busy! My froggy-friend has been on my butt to make yet another blog post, so I guess I need to buckle down and try to get back to our regularly scheduled program on MY life haha!

M likes his job but hates working with all the idiots... He says its pretty sad when the stupid people are calling other people stupid. His stories he comes home with are rather amusing and really shows the intelligence of the crew!

MS is doing really good. She sure is growing. She is 7lbs. 4 oz. 20 inches long now. She is now the size of an average newborn, which is just crazy! She is sleeping fairly well. Yesterday me and her tangled all day. I just wanted to crawl in a hole and not come out, unfortunately that was not an option, but she was a great little girl today-I went back to liking her (I know that sounds horrible).

I am trying to be the "stereo-typical" housewife (yes, i know that is amusing for some of you). I am not doing that good though to say the least. My house looks like a tornado went through it and dinner is never ready when I want it to be. But hey I am trying!

I miss everyone back in Big-Town Kansas but I know this was a good move for us and financially we are getting back to where we want to be so that is a good thing and I am starting to stress a little less than what I was. We can actually afford a child now YAY!

Our neighbor SH is hilarious and has really welcomed us into the neighborhood, she is hilarious. She is a huge klutz (her words not mine)... The other night she spilled her coke in the process of cleaning that up she kicked her daughters plant across the yard, managed to break her chair, then fall off the side of the porch and now she was not under the influence of anything which makes it even more hilarious.

Our other neighbor J has tried to poison us with expired crackers A WHOLE FREAKING BOX FULL! I am glad that I am fairly anal about looking for expiration dates on everything... That box is now at the bottom of a dumpster. Lesson #600 Never accept food from strangers!

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Better Days Ahead

We are finally moved into our place in small town Kansas, its really nice and has BRAND NEW appliances which I am in love with. If I could marry my appliances I would haha! In the past two weeks a lot of things have happened. M has a great job which he is going on day 5 of that job and still likes it so thats a good sign I think. We still don't have all our boxes un-packed but it will get there, I would rather stare at my daughter than un-pack because I will only be able to get those moments for so long.

Had to take MS to the doctor today. She (I thought) had allergies the classic red puffy eyes, stuffy nose, & sneezing. Well today she was running a fever so I took her in. I am definately changing doctors after the tests are ran... The nurses putting it nicely are incompetent and have proved they don't read charts so now I am questioning why these people even make charts if they don't read the stupid things. Anyways she is 7 lbs 4 oz now and 20 inches long YAY still in the 5th percentile but thats a lot of weight to gain in two months, as long as the numbers are going up I am happy. The doctor thinks she has GERD (Gastrointestinal Reflux Disease) its common in preemies so he is having us go Tuesday to do an upper GI X-ray with barium to make sure thats what it is. If it is then he is going to prescribe Zantac & Regulin to help with that. If thats what it is the meds sure will make my days so much better. I might actually be able to get something done instead of her screaming in pain and me going to run and get her because I know she is uncomfortable. I feel like crying when she cries because I want so bad to be able to take her pain away but I know I can't :(

Thursday, May 03, 2007

An Open Window

We finally found a place close to small town kansas! We are approved and we move on Tuesday! My overall mood has drastically improved after hearing the good news. No more worrying about where we are going to live. Most of the house is packed (still looks like a tornado went through it though.)

M and I went with the family up to Kansas City, Missouri which is where we went for our honeymoon (our 1 year anniversary is the 27th of this month). It was really neat going back there after all most a year. It really brought back good memories. We took the same pictures we did last year but this time add in the little munchkin (will update this post with those pictures once i upload them). We went up to Skies (revolving restaurant above the 40th floor mark) which was a lot of fun even though it was foggy & rainy. We went through Crown Center and visited the indoor waterfall. It was a blast and I hope on our 2nd anniversary we are able to go back up there, even if its just for the day.

MS has been a very cranky little girl lately and I am at a loss of what to for her. I really think she has been having bad gas and the mylicon drops don't seem to work... Any advice?

Monday, April 30, 2007

The Evil Pacifier

This is the pacifier... It is EVIIIILL! MS unfortunately loves the stupid thing. So its time to outweigh the pros and cons

-It is said that a pacifier can decrease SIDS by 20 %
- it will soothe her when she is crying and sometimes get me and extra 30 min-hour sleep (which is a big pro)
- Since she is a preemie-they say it helps them gain weight faster (only a handful of reports published about this topic, so not too sure if its correct or not)
- She really seems to enjoy sucking on the evil thing

-at night if she loses it she screams until it is back in place-this happens about 10 times a night and it REALLY STINKS
-25% more likely to have chronic ear infections
-can cause dental problems (in children over 2 years old-which SHE WILL BE WEANED FROM IT BY THEN)

All in all the pros outweigh the cons its just less stressful for her to have it but more stressful for me. I just wish she would get tired of the pacifier and decide its no fun to suck on anymore... This is the ramblings of an over tired mommy haha!

In other news.
M's brother and sister-in-law are here in town so we have been enjoying visiting with them. They are really fun to hang out with and they seem to really like MS (its really cute).

Friday, April 27, 2007

Pull My Hair Out & Call My Britney Spears

Is this what I will be living in soon????

Today has been a very long day! I am sick of looking for places! The mortgage company that could finance a house offered a pretty crappy deal. They will cover 70% and we have to come down with 30%. Lets just put this into perspective a $50,000 house would be 15,000 down and a 50,000 dollar house is a rare find in the first place. So now house ownership is out of the question for the moment. We have two more places to pursue so hopefully we can get into one of them. We pushed back the move to Friday morning which is the last day that we can move. I am crossing my fingers and hoping that one of these come through because I really don't want to live with my parents. Living with my parents would be very stressful on everyone involved. As my wise husband says "your parents really like me now, I don't want it to be different."

On the MS front. She has been a little cranky butt today! She doesn't want daddy today. She wants to be held by mommy and screams if she isn't. I really hope she isn't getting sick because she normally isn't like this at all. She has a diaper rash from the Luv's diapers that we just tried so its back to Pampers, so much for trying to buy cheaper diapers! I feel so sorry for her little butt, she only wore them for a day but her butt is so raw (poor baby). She is rolling over all the time and its really scary, I can't put her someone and her stay in one spot. So now she is being placed in a bouncer/swing/or floor when I go to do other things because I am scared that she is going to fall off the bed or couch. I heard that you aren't supposed to put them in a bassinet after they start rolling but everything else is packed up so she will have to stay in that for a week longer (hopefully we have our own place in a week).
I just want this whole move to be over with so that I can get back into my routine again and have a house that is not full of boxes. It is going to be weird having M go back to work and I will have her all by myself. I am really not looking forward to that because I have relayed on him a lot (maybe too much) and I am scared that I can't do this all by myself!

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Brick Walls & Dead Ends... Does it get better?

Well we are scheduled to move on the 3rd lets keep in mind people that it less than a week away LESS THAN A WEEK!!!!

Last month we almost locked into a rent-to-own 3 bedroom/2 bath, island stove all out gorgeous place. The guy we shall call him Mr. Icandoanything said that we would qualify no problem even after we told him about or not the greatest credit due to lovely student loans and a ex-wife. Again he says no problem they (lenders) won't care.

We begin to pack or what I thought tiny apartment until I begun to sort through things, but hey we are moving to a better place so its worth it RIGHT?

Well, the next day he calls and said well we had a little bit of a hitch and the lenders want you to have a co-signer. Well, I told him to call my father and talk to him about the details. Well that didn't work out. So now we are packed with no place to go.

We get on the phone and team up with my parents to find a place. So now we find a trailer for rent. Sounded really nice, my parents both loved and said they were sure we would to. Well okay lets pursue this. We told the lady about our credit she said it was fine we told them that my hubby had a felony (don't worry he didn't kill, assault, or rape anyone! It was more like the stupid state pursued a case even though the charges were dropped and it was a non-person level 10 (lowest) felong) anyways she said it wouldn't be a problem to get in. Well we get a call back the next day (keep in mind a $35 application fee) and said it was their policy to not let anyone with a felony live in the trailer park. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? We even explained the felony and that it was four years old to you and you said it would be okay! Now, its time to pull my hair out!

My mom said maybe it would be easier to get into a house and buy it. She talks to a realtor down their. The realtor emails me 6 different houses (keep in my mind my mom has explained everything) she says that Prudential can work with us and get us into something. I call the lady to tell her which houses I narrowed it down to so my mom can go look at them tomorrow (now today). I again re-iterate or credit and she says "oh well i didn't realize it was that bad" LADY I JUST TOLD YOU BEFORE WHAT OUR CREDIT SCORE WAS, WHATS SO HARD TO REALIZE???? So, she calls Wells Fargo and now they are trying to work with us (rolls eyes), he knows our credit score and he response was "well I can do things most people can't" well I am glad your confident in yourself but I definately not that confident in mr. egotistical!

We also called a place for rent (2bedroom/2bath) the man told me that he would think about the cats and get back to us. I call back later and the house has been rented out.

Is this our sign to NOT move? I know we have to move though because we live in a 1 bedroom apartment and we definately need more room their is no doubt about it. With small town M would be making more money and cost of living is cheaper than it is big town. Finacially this makes sense for us and I am getting really worried now that the 3rd is getting so close!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Dark & Rainy & Funny Stuff

The weather sure is affecting me today. I am in just one of "those" moods. I am sick of my house being torn up (due to moving) and I can't wait to just move so I have some order back in my life again. Right now my routine is total chaos and I am not liking it one bit!

Last night MS went to grandpa & grandma's so that we can pack some more (again trying to restore some balance in my house). They thought it was pretty cute that while lying on her tummy she can support herself on her hands and look directly at you. (Really, its kinda creepy that she is that strong, I really wasn't expecting her to be this strong so soon!

I can't wait to move into our nice 3 bedroom/2 bath house WITH A tornado shelter (a must in a part of Kansas known for getting bombed with tornados). I am so excited to get their and decorate (yes, i know i am nuts)! Or maybe i am just really excited because I will be getting out of this place that is called an "apartment" which is far from it! I would prefer to call it a dwelling that is falling apart as the landlord stands idly by because she isn't that smart and tries to fix everything herself.

Saturday M's brother and sister-in-law are coming into town. I am really excited to see them. Haven't seen them since our wedding (which has been a while). K (his sister-in-law) said she really wants to babysit well more power to her hahah. She might decide she never wants kids after this (in MS's defense she really isn't too bad, pretty well-natured but thats besides the point hah).

So, I guess I should title this post something different since most of my news is positive but I think I will keep it since after all its dark & rainy outside and I might just get blown away in a tornado today!!!

Sunday, April 22, 2007

1 Month Old... How Time Passes So Quickly

MS is a month old today. I can't believe that she has been home with us for three weeks now. She is growing a lot! We went to the doctor on Friday and she is weighing 5 lbs. 12 oz. 18 1/2 inches long, head circumference 13 1/2 inches. So in the last month she has grown 1 lb. 10 oz. 1 1/2 inches long and her head has grown 1 1/2 inches. Thats insane! She is finally fitting really well into newborn clothes (yay, be ready for cute clothes pictures now haha)
She has quite the personality thats for sure. She definately has my temper and gets mad quickly but gets over it quickly too! She loves staring at me and M's face, lights, fans, and the Little Mermaid book. She could care less about any noises she will look where its coming from and then go right back to what she was doing beforehand. She is also in love with her pacifier, which I HATE HATE HATE, reason being I hate it is because even if she is dead asleep and loses it and wakes up screaming. Oh well its supposed to help prevent SIDS so I can't complain too much.
M and I decided we are definately moving to small town, KS and he is taking the job offer there. We are going to (most likely) be moving on May 2nd so its been pretty hectic around here packing and sorting and of course throwing things away.
I'm pretty excited about the move since I will be closer to my parents which I really miss a lot. On the other hand though I feel bad because M's parents are here and he for the most part has lived here his whole life. He is going to have to adjust to all the streets and probably get lost a couple times and won't be close to his family and I feel bad for that. Even though thats what I did last year when I came up to live with him but it seems different.
We have so much to do, I didn't realize how much CRAP we had laying around that is now filling up the dumpster. Thankfully we have 4 dumpsters that are picked up weekly otherwise nobody else would be able to their trash where it needs to go (which would be rather amusing, since our landlord lives here and we are extremely tired of the way she goes about things. But if I discuss that further this post would turn into a rant and I don't intend on making it that)

Thursday, April 19, 2007

A Week in Reflection

I didn't know anybody that passed away, I didn't know anyone who even attends that school. But my heart goes out to the families and friends of these students. How could someone be so malice? I have found myself not even watching the news about it because even though I knew nobody it some what hits home. Now that I have a baby I couldn't imagine losing my only child or any child for that matter. These people that were murdered in cold blood are my age that could easily have been me and its scary. I just pray that the families find some peace in knowing that the person that murdered their children/siblings/best friends etc. will never walk the streets again and be able to hurt anymore people ever again.
What set him off? There are so many questions that will probably never be answered or any light shed on them. My heart goes out to these families
In other less depressing news, we are moving back to little town to a nice big house and M now has a good job once we get down there. Financially its a really good move for us and I will be about 10 minutes away from my parents. The only down-side is we are leaving M's parents and I feel bad for moving after just having MS and taking M away from them. But we would like to be better finacially so its a good move and I can't wait to be close to my family again!
MS is getting a lot bigger, its crazy how much she has grown! She is now standing when we hold her, its hilarious to see! Now if we could just get over puking everywhere life would be great!! She is now sleeping about 4 1/2 hours at night so I can't complain too much!

Monday, April 16, 2007

March of Dimes-Walk America

I decided today that I am going to walk in the March of Dimes Walk. I know MS wasn't that premature but it still hits home. Unfortunately many babies are very premature and aren't as lucky as MS to get out in 7 days and they need your help!

There are two ways you can help. (1) register to walk or (2) sponsor my team

Here is the link

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Date Night

Before we started our night I wrote out specific instructions for our little bundle of joy to make sure she wasn't too stressed out over different care & handling... yes I know I am truly a dork, but totally okay with that!

This is how we started the night with our precious little bundle of joy... very alert & awake, ready to eat for grandma & grandpa...

We went to Outback Steakhouse and had a great dinner... yummy shrimp! It then started snowing IN APRIL IN KANSAS! I thought that was CRAZY!
Then we went to Home Depot and bought cable ends... Still snowing very wet and COLLLLD!

Then we traveled to the mall... I decided I wanted to start reading to MS so we went to Foozles (a book store in there) they were having a great sale! We got a whole bunch of Dr. Seuss & Disney books, yes ME, I, THE DUMMY spent 50.00 on BOOKS for a child that won't be reading for a loooong time. Oh well she will just be able to recite every book from memory when I am through! mwhahaha

After that it was snowing pretty heavy and we went and got our sweet little baby! Here she is safe at home with mommy and daddy... sleeping (she does that well!)
All in all it was actually pretty nice to get out. I was wondering about her the whole time and I called a couple times to check on her. She doesn't seem traumatized by the whole thing so maybe M and I will have to make a habit of going out together once a month because it was a lot of fun.
Looking back on pictures I can't believe how much she has grown! Its insane how fast she is growing. I would love to get to the point where she sleeps through the night and then just stop her from growing even though I know it doesn't work that way :(

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

All Around Good Week

Things have started to settle down here now, which I am psyched about! MS sleeps through the night, we have to physically wake her up to feed her and then she goes right back to sleep, I really hope this continues. She is now wearing newborn clothes, they are still a little big but preemie clothes are to small. She has finally decided that the boob is good and I now don't have to mess with the stupid nipple shield. She is growing like a weed, she will be 3 weeks old tomorrow I can't believe it!
M is a great father, did I say great father? I really don't know what I would do without him. He is always helping out and making sure I am okay too. I need to start telling him thank you, because I am beginning to take all his help for granted and in May he has to go back to work and I will have to get up with her at night because he works hard and I wouldn't want him to be tired all day and driving. I think I need to come up with ideas to thank him, because just a plain thank you isn't good enough in my opinion.
Everything is going pretty good for me, I have found out that at 3 in the morning I am a pretty grumpy person and I pity M for having to deal with me. I have been able to get a shower everyday this week and clean the house, quite an accomplishment in my opinion. So here I sit squeaky clean in my clean living room, I know in about 6 months that my house will never be clean again. I am slowly coming to terms with that. My incision where they took MS out hurts again because of my stupid (STUPID STUPID) cat Trouble. I was sitting on the couch loving him and he decides to jump in the air and of course land on my incision... I am beginning to not like my cat at the moment!
Me and M are going to go out on Friday, I am nervous about leaving my baby with his parents. Not that I don't think his parents can take care of her I know they can and will but thats my baby and what if she cries the whole time I would feel horrible for leaving her... I guess once Friday comes we will see how I feel about this and if I can actually go through with leaving her for 2 hours while we go out to eat.
Infomercial really stink at 3 o'clock in the morning, why can't they have better things on? The should have a channel just for parents that are up that stinking early/late. GIVE US SOMETHING INTERESTING TO WATCH!!!!!

Monday, April 09, 2007

Am I Lying To Myself?

-I think she is getting bigger! She is starting to fit into newborn clothes and too small for preemie clothes.

-I will be extremely happy to see those preemie clothes being packed up, there aren't many cute clothes for preemies... hint hint designing people out there you could make some money in designing cute preemie clothes!

-Things are starting to get better besides the whole feeding schedule, which is now moving to every 3 1/2 hours instead of every 3 hours, we are getting some where people, slowly but surely!

-I actually cleaned my house yesterday, some how I ACTUALLY found time to clean, holy moly! Yes, I am very proud of that thank you very much!

-I have found the spot where I can get my me time... When MS is fussy and I really need to check out of mommy-hood for a while I will tell M I have to go to the bathroom and go poop, yes I know I am a liar but I am honestly okay with that because for 10 minutes I am in my quiet place and nobody bothers me. By revealing this I may have just blown that though....

-MS has discovered that she really likes me holding her when she goes to sleep, which I am okay with... I hope she always stays as cuddly as she is now but I doubt that will happen.

-She is holding her head up really well! YAY!

-She is smiling and now its been confirmed that its not just gas, she actually smiles when you tickle her or when she sees me or M. My little girl is already growing up and I don't think I am adjusting well to that yet. Even though sleeping through the night wouldn't be too bad in my opinion but its all worth it.

-Wow, I must be in a good mood today! I have been up most the night and I have a smile on my face! Thats pretty shocking, guess this is a sign that its going to be a great day (crosses fingers).

Saturday, April 07, 2007

My Cat is Bigger than Your Cat!

-I have become to realize my whole life revolves around the munchkin whether I like it or not
-My nipples are very sore
-I hate pumping and I hate the stupid nipple shield, why won't she take my naked boob!!!?
-My cat is still bigger than she is and he is only 7lbs.
-I am a zombie, I am still not used to no sleep, I am still not believing anyone who tells me it will get better because then I will get my hopes up and it will never happen
-I love the little munchkin but she loves puking on me more
-Can you devoice a baby? Yeah thats what I thought, damn the luck
-Went to see the peditrician today and she is 4 lbs. 14 oz. now

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Can't Sleep Baby Will Eat Me

Sleep? What is sleep? I think I have forgotten what sleep is all about. I know I lay in bed and close my eyes but that is as close to sleep as I have gotten in a while. MS is doing great she is becoming a lot more alert and loves looking at the fan, lights, and eyes... She has been smiling but I am sure its just gas! Went to the doctor yesterday and she weights 4 lbs. 10 oz so she is up 5 oz. in 5 days woohoo!

My birthday was on the 1st and I got a new digital camera (thanks mom &dad #2), so look for lots of MS pics and weird random pictures that I decide are worth taking...

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Already a week old

MS celebrated her 1 week old birthday on Thursday... She got a fantastic present too! She got to come home from the hospital woohoo! I thought I would be up all night, get no sleep, and have her screaming all hours of the night but I thought wrong. The past two nights have been very mellow, she is eating great and keeping her temperature YAY!

Went to the doctor on Friday and she has gained 2 more ounces in a day bringing her up to 4 lbs. 5 oz. he said to keep up what we were doing and she would be big in no time. She is now in the 7th percentile for weight she was in 3rd so thats always good news.

Her umbilical cord fell off at the doctors office when the doctor was examining her. Not sure if she has an innie or an outie, its kinda in between... I will report more on that later!

M has become quite the daddy, he gets up with me for MS feedings and loves to take care of all her needs and of course hold her hold her hold her. Right now they are cuddled up in bed sleeping, its really cute!

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Day 6 of NICU

Today has been an extremely long day. I don't think my body can take much more of the lack of sleep. I know once she is home it will be a lot easier because when she wants to eat I won't have to drive 15 minutes to get her some of my yummy moo juice! I can't wait to have her home. They put her back in the open air crib and her body temperature has been able to stay high enough to stay in there for 12 hours and counting, so thats one step closer to getting home. She started having an irregular heartbeat today that our nurse saw. They ran an 12 lead EKG and called in a cardiologist consult. We saw the cardiologist and he said its fairly common even in newborns and not to be alarmed. I am very glad it was nothing but very thankful to have had it checked out just in case. The doctors are really good but none of them communicate with each other which somewhat upsets me. One doctor (her actual peditrician) said to supplement my breast milk feedings with 35 ml of breast milk & fortifier to increase it to 22 calories. She did really well with that but then the nurse practioner came in a couple hours later and tried to reduce that amount. Well angry momma bear came out and I told her like it was, I don't think she likes me anymore but this stuff happens all the time and they always contradict each other. Its really rather annoying! She has gained even more weight. Gained an ounce in 1 day YAY she is now up to 4 lbs. 3 oz. so officially she is above her birth weight yippee! Tomorrow is most likely her carseat test, I am crossing my fingers that she stays warm (never been exposed to open air without blanket for more than an hour) and that her O2 stays where it needs to be. Keep your fingers crossed for this please!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Birth Story

March 21st I was put on cervadil to thin my cervix, they didn't think this would put me into labor and I would have to wait for the morning to start pitocin. Around 10pm that night those contractions started and let me just say contractions are not fun! All I could do was lay there and imagine how gorgeous she was going to be that is what helped me get through those nasty nasty contractions.

Around 3:30 in the morning of the 22nd my nurse came in looked at the monitor and said "hmm" then another nurse and another... At this point I started to freak out a little bit, I asked what was wrong, they said her heart rate was falling every time I had a contraction. The said they were scheduling a c-section at 5:30 in the morning and they had to stop the contractions.

Next thing I know the nurse comes in and says we are prepping you for c-section now... (this was about 3:50am). Next thing I know I am being wheeled into an operating room. I remember hearing rock music playing and it was really hot in there! It took six tries for the doctor to get my epidural correctly placed which seemed like an eternity being hunched over and leaning on M. As soon as the epidural took effect they started cutting.

It was really laid back in there I think mainly because I knew all the nurses and the doctors because of weeks of being there on bedrest and wheeling around the hospital almost non-stop in a gorgeous black wheelchair (haha). I got compliments like "you got really great tissue" which I was amused about that then and I still am! M was able to videotape the whole thing which was absolutely awesome.

At 4:39 am MS was brought into this lovely world. The moment Dr. S raised her over the screen for me to see I lost it. I started bawling and I was so relieved she was here. I mumbled the words "I'm a mommy" it hit me that all of these months that I have had my little angel inside me I had grown to love her so much that it hurt.

She had to be taken to NICU because her body temperature was really low so M went up there with her which was a relief to me. Around 8 am they wheeled me up in the bed and let me see her for 5 minutes, I cried the whole time. I was devastated that I couldn't hold my baby, all I could do was stare and that hurt.

Around 930 I was already up there to go see my precious angel she was in an isolette and a heart rate monitor attached to her. I begin to cry, she looked so vulnerable and tiny. I just wanted to grab her, hold her to my chest and run out of the building.

Now its day 6 in NICU. She was under bili-lights for jaundice but those levels have went down. She is eating very well! They are weaning her temperature down. She was moved to a crib but had to go right back to an isolette because she had gotten too cold. Doctors say she should be home by the weekend... I am sure hoping so!

Monday, March 26, 2007

Mismatch Family Has A New Member

This little munchkin here would be why I haven't updated in a while. I will update soon I promise
Ms born March 22 @ 439am weighing 4 lbs. 2 oz. and 17 inches long

Monday, March 19, 2007

Baby Shower

I had my baby shower on St. Patrick's Day down in the hospital basement. It was a lot of fun and made the day go by a lot faster than it normally would, which is okay with me! We got a lot of clothes, I could dress her once an hour for a week and still have clothes clean left over, which isn't a bad thing.

I am able to walk around now twice a day, this makes me happy. I am becoming to appreciate my legs! I am still on the macrobid for my bladder infections until I deliver.

Tomorrow we find out if MS has grown anymore, I hope she has, keep your fingers crossed and us in your prayers.

I found out that the NICU here doesn't have a weight requirement to leave NICU its based on performance. If they can eat, sustain body temp, blood sugar and eat on their own which makes me breath a little bit better but I still want her to have some more weight on her.

I will put pictures up of the baby shower when I get home (who knows when that will be) but this internet here is pretty slow and I don't want to try and upload/download pictures for 5 hours!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

35 Weeks... 1 More To Go

I feel like I am getting bigger, I have gained more weight. I just hope the gain in weight is because MS is growing, I will find out if she has grown some more next Tuesday (crossing fingers that she has put on atleast 14 oz.) I don't really have any pregnancy symptoms besides being big, swollen feet, and having to lay in bed all day. Oh well one more week is all I keep telling myself.

Midlife (read her comment on It's Sinking In), had stated it could take up to a EDIT*COUPLE DAYS* (sorry, I need to learn how to read better), I asked my midwife about this today and she said and I quote "yeah it can happen but don't worry if you aren't dilating in 24 hours we will do a c-section" oh yeah not worry huh? crazy woman now wants me to start pulling my hair because really I don't want to have a c-section. I will of course do it if it comes to that but I would rather not. Oh well I will do what I got to do!

Its Beginning To Sink In

Yesterday Dr. S did a doppler to check the blood flow from the placenta to the baby, it has more resistance (I think that is the wording he used) which is what he had expected. Anyways they are going to be inducing me on the 21st, so thats seven days away... Wow seven. I sit here and realize that seven days isn't that far away. I am beginning to get a little nervous about how everything is going to go. Seven days I will be a mother, in seven days I will have a daughter, in seven days I will be changing diapers, seven days I will be feeding a beautiful little girl.... Wow, in only seven days.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Thankful & Lucky

I have a lot of time to really think lately. I sit here day in day out for the past five days and I have eleven more days to go. Yes, I will admit I have been feeling sorry for myself and realized that is just pure stupid. I am able to go outside in a wheelchair, I am able to get out of my room. Also I am 34 weeks, most of these women here with the exception of 2 or 3 women. Really I am one of the lucky ones. Earlier today there was a lady who I believe was 25 weeks pregnant and she went into labor and they couldn't stop it. She had to have a c-section and I just feel so bad for her. Reason I say think she was so many weeks is you catch certain things while wheeling through the hallways. So tonight before I go to sleep I will pray that her and her child or children are safe and that they are recovering because today I am one of the lucky ones.

Friday, March 09, 2007


Well I am in the hospital. Finally got my internet connection up and running woohoo! I went to the doctor on Tuesday. They hooked me up to the NST and the baby was not reactive (meaning more than 3 acclerations in 30 minutes). Midwife wanted to do a BPP (Bio-Physical Profile) which is they want 2 movements & 2 kicks in 30 minutes. We were not prepared for what they said next. She is measuring two weeks behind and they wanted me to go see the perinatologist immediately. They sent me next door to the hospital and I saw Dr. S and he confirmed that yes she was two weeks behind in growth. Weighing 3.4 lbs. He diagnosed me with IUGR (Inter-uterine growth retardation) he recommended I stay in the hospital until delivery to monitor her and recommended inducing me at 36 weeks which is on March 21st. So I am here for a while. I am scared to death I know she will be in NICU for a while and they sent a neonatologist in to discuss that with me. I am trying to prepare for that emotionally. Dr. L said she shouldn't be in NICU for too long and will most likely be able to breath on her own and I will be able to breast feed her. They are just worried about her weight. I will try to keep everyone posted.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Sign #2 That My Husband Is Crazy

While driving to go to dinner my husband needs to blow his nose. Some how I have managed to prepare myself for these situations... My purse has become a stock pile of junk. I fish out a kleenex for him and he blows his nose. He then decides to share is nasal content with me. He says "hey look" yes I am actually dumb enough to look down. In it was a yellow gob of what seriously looked like jiggly jell-o. I couldn't help it but I started gagging and did so for about 10 minutes, he is obviously amused and keeps trying to make me look at this nasty kleenex. Later after I composed myself I started thinking, is boogers really supposed to look like jello? I know my boogers have never looked like that...

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Relocation to the Woods... Life Would Be Grand

A couple days ago I was reading a post by Mr. Crank. Here is the five people I would add to that lovely relocation list.

1. Richard Simmons: How can you be so darn chipper while hopping around and sweating like no other? Your hair must go through a bottle of hairspray a day. So if you went to the forest maybe you could become more man like and actually have some hair on your legs for once!

2. Britney Spears: Quit doing stupid things to try to get yourself noticed. I realize you want attention but this is not the way to do it. People do not just shave their heads, drink at all hours while caring for two children, and please next time when going out wear some damn underwear it won't kill you. Please hand me my tranquilizer gun.

3. Ashton Kutcher: Your a menace to society. You remind me of a little kid trying to get attention anyway they can as a desperate attempt to be liked. Get over it and put some big boy underwear on!

4. Lindsay Lohan: I used to like you, when you weren't such a alcoholic/druggy. You deserve a reward for going to rehab so many times... If only they wouldn't let you leave

5. Tom Cruise: Its your right as an American to discuss religion, but please don't push it upon people that could careless how you live your life. Don't act like such a baby and start jumping on chairs.

Saturday, March 03, 2007

33 Week Pictures

*Edited-picture removed due to privacy issues*
Here is the cooked turkey! Pictures courtesy of frogbfound... I feel huge, I can no longer get off the couch without a little shove or legs flying in the air. I have gorgeous stretch marks or as I like to call them "badges of honor" tonight I was at frogbfound's and her cute little nine year old daughter saw them as say "WOW you are really stretched" gee thanks kid! Don't you love how blunt kids can be...

A Rambling of a Tired Woman

M isn't feeling well so of course you know the whole world must stop and he must be waited on hand and foot. Why is it that most men are such big babies when they are sick? I know its not all guys so don't go blasting my comments with those darn men comments haha. I remember growing up and my dad was the same way as M rarely got sick but when they did they seemed to think the whole world should notice. Even though I think my dad was worse then M (or so my mom has led me to believe)!

M has also become obsessed with hand sanitizer. Yes, I know he is weird but that's okay I guess he has clean hands with his new found obsession. Bottles of the stuff have been placed strategically throughout the house. I have to admit its kind of cute with his stuffy nose asking "wheres da saaaaaanitzer? Aha the things that amuse my little brain.

My belly button is starting to pop out. Does that mean I am about to be done cooking? I would love to go into labor at 37 weeks on the dot (considered full-term) but I know that probably won't happen. Anyways I am tempted to paint the inside of my belly button red like the turkey thermometers they have shoved in them so that I can "pop like a turkey" Yes people I am easily amused.

I am also extremely jealous. Everyone else gets tagged with meme's but not me. So really you faithful and loyal readers I want a meme or I will be forced to make my own meme. Yes desperate times call for desperate measures

Friday, March 02, 2007

Angry Patient

33 weeks 2 days

Well I went to the doctor today. I was accompanied by M and his mom. I love his mom she is fantastic. Anyways, they did my NST first MS's heart beat was in the 120's now with the appropriate amount of accelerations (rise of the heart beat more then 20 beats for 15 or more seconds). My blood pressure is now back to normal. Cranky Nurse said "wow that's the first time since Jan. that its been a normal number. (Maybe thats because I am not taken my medications mwhahaha I know I am such a rebel HAHA). They hooked me up to the lovely fetal monitors and I layed there for my great 20 minutes. Bad Midwife came in (yes her name has now changed). I am measuring 33 cm. so I am right on goal she commented I had a small belly. ARE YOU KIDDING ME HAVE YOU SEEN THIS MONSTROUS THING ARE YOU NOT PAYING ATTENTION??? She is due in August and I hope she gains 100 pounds now for saying that! She agrees with not taking the shot anymore but said I should keep taking the procardia. I as nicely as possible told her that I would prefer not to and look at my chart my blood pressure is finally normal since starting that crap. Her reply "well you should still take it" well she can kiss my lily white butt (yes its eye blinding white!). I told her I was really worried and upset that she didn't take my phone calls, she said she was busy. Yeah whatever lady its your job to take care of the patient and I AM THE PATIENT! I told her well she could have at least had the nurse call me, she took the point so maybe I won't have the problem again... She agrees that my "cold" is probably due to allergies and told me I could take over the counter Claritin for it, something I already knew but at least she is trying to be a care provider. I might feel differently if I need to call her and she doesn't return my calls again. Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me. If there is a next time I will not be a very happy camper. Bad Midwife also said that after I hit 36 weeks that I will be able to go off all medications and come off bed rest, WOOHOO! I am still continuing the bed rest and I think that is probably a wise decision.

M thinks that I should still take the procardia even though he has seen the effects it has on me. He said he just wants MS to be okay which I understand but it also pissed me off because WHAT ABOUT ME? I know there are now two individuals to think about but it just rubbed me the wrong way. He also states that well those side effects are probably for "long term use" well in a pregnancy what is considered long term... 9 mo, 6 mo. or the 3 months that I should be taking them. Oh well its not like he checks my medication to make sure I took them so he will never know until I tell him after MS is born.

In response to Moi yes I have considered switching providers but in my clinic everyone shares patients, there is two doctors and three midwifes and it just depends on the day who I see. So I would have to totally change clinics and then wouldn't be able to deliver at the hospital that I would like to deliver. Also because of the complications I have had I don't just want to change and have a new doctor not really know my history or else I would have changed in a heart beat. I just keep telling myself 7 1/2 more weeks till my due date and I won't have to mess with them anymore, I suppose I can handle that.