Most people don't know this but I am a baseball fanatic! I live and breath baseball when it is baseball season. I have also been a bat girl for a team for eight years now... Yes I know I am out-growing this but I really don't care. Every year is the NBC and I have attended now since I was about eight years old. This was alway Daddy & Me time. This year though it has started to grow into a family event. My dad, brother, me, and M attended. My team went three rounds that I bat-girl for (well I have a lot more jobs then that laundry, managing, getting people from point A to B, scouting etc.) It was truly a fun week and I was just able to relax, enjoy the sun and the great games. So many people I saw couldn't believe I was married now, I practically grew up in this Lawrence Dumont Stadium so it was a real shocker for some people that hadn't seen me in a while. M isn't really into baseball but he tried his best and said he would like to go back next year woohoo I am recruiting him into a baseball fanatic, I just have to take baby steps with him and I am sure in a couple years he will live and breath baseball to when its baseball season.

I was disappointed that my team didn't do that well. Oh well there is always next year. They have been coming to this tournament for twenty years now so they don't plan on leaving anytime soon! GO STARS!

Oh and the picture on the left that is Laces he is the NBC mascot and I know him personally but I can't reveal his name he is just Laces. But he made that costume all by himself in a couple weeks isn't that awesome?

Honeymooners

Our honeymoon was fantastic! We were in very big city Kansas in a gorgeous hotel full of shops and lots of exciting things to see. We had a balcony and it was Memorial Day Weekend, bands were playing and fireworks. It was really cool to be sitting on the balcony seventeen floors up and just listening to the orchestra as the fireworks went off. It was truly romantic. We went up for dinner at a place that is 50 floors up and the restaurant rotates that was really cool to see the sights of downtown and enjoy a relaxing dinner. Very very neat. Thanks M's parents for giving us a great honeymoon!

Took the Plunge

Its official! Mr. & Mrs. Mismatch. I can't believe we have come this far. It seems like only yesterday that I fell madly in love with you and have begun to love you more and more everyday. It seems like yesterday when I would cry because I had to go back to small town Kansas for the week and couldn't wait for the next week to come and see you again. It seems like yesterday when we first told each other we loved each other. Wow, it just seems like yesterday...

The wedding went fantastic! It was fairly warm outside (90 F) but was breezy so that really helped. My dad walked me down the aisle and I almost started to cry. I am a big daddy's girl and earlier about 45 minutes before the wedding my dad hadn't turned up. I later found out he didn't want to come until the wedding because his little girl was all grown up now and he didn't want to cry. The justice of the peace was a little irritating but thats okay, he just spoke very slow. I just kept looking into M's eyes wondering what he was thinking as he had "just gotten dust in his eye" (YEAH RIGHT). I tried my hardest not to cry and I didn't, even though I was very tempted to. It was a very emotional day for M and I both. It was truly amazing and I don't think it could have gone any better. With the lake to our backs and the sun setting and be pronounced husband and wife it was like we were the only two there suspended in time looking into each others eyes. I will remember this forever. Now we are off on our honeymoon!

Holy Moly!

I am already closing another chapter in my life. Tomorrow I will be a married woman, no longer a fiance'. I am scared to death about what the future holds for my life. I still haven't come to realize that I will be Mrs. Mismatch tomorrow. In front of all of our family and friends I am going to commit myself to M and it scares me to death. I am not scared because I know this is a lifelong commitment, I am not scared to be with him forever. I am scared because its something I have no control over. I have no control over my feelings for M which are so strong that it scares me. I have no control over M's feelings which he says are very deep and he proves that to me everyday in his actions towards me. How was I so lucky to ever meet someone like him? We are exact opposites with few things in common but some how it works fantastically. We know we can live with each other so that is not something I am concerned about. I am just scared of the future because I can not see into it.

My friend frogbfound threw me a Bridal Shower. It was really neat to see how much of my family traveled three hours just to be there. That really made me feel important that day. Even though we did have a few shall we say "incidents" everything went pretty good. I got a lot of really cool stuff that I wanted and some things that I hadn't requested (see picture) but hey even those unrequested items were pretty cool! Thanks everyone

For the "incident" this would include a lady I was friends with for a while. L was supposed to be in my wedding and was invited to the bridal shower. We had a falling out a couple weeks beforehand. Unfortunately should decided she could not handle this like an adult and decided to show up to to my Bridal Shower. I handled it pretty good, she pretended like she was returning a blanket I let her borrow for her son. I opened the door and she yelled bitch and threw the blanket. I was appalled and extremely embarrased all I could muster saying was Thank You. Why or why did you just say thank you? Really I could have came up with a better come back then that but Thank you? Oh well it was probably a good thing because had she said anything else my lack of judgement might have kicked in and I would say things that shouldn't be said in front of family, friends, and acquaintances from the church. After my company had left L had her sister-in-law call me and attempt to degrade me and this is where my lack of better judgement came in and I began to yell and scream absurdities to no end and hung up. But L's SIL was presistent and kept calling to which my good judgement came in and I just called the police. Charges have been filed for phone harrasment and these parties have been spoken with. I could never have a good time without just a little added drama now could I? Thus is life.

It's MY Birthday!

Its My Birthday!

Today I have been on this earth for eighteen years. Looking back a lot of things have happened in my short little life. I was born to a seventeen year old that had other responsibilities. The people I call mom & dad where there from day 1 (the used to be my grandparents). They legally adopted me once I was four years old. I moved to a small town in Kansas and grew up there knowing everyone and them knowing me. I made a lot of stupid decisions in my teenage years and paid a lot on consequences but now I am on the right track. Just in the past year I have grown up a lot and I thank God everyday for molding me into the person I am today.

These are me and M's babies. Trouble & Gizmo... Trouble is my cat that I raised from a wee litte kitty. Gizzy as she is affectionately known as is M's cat that he raised since she was three weeks old. Our cats have total opposite personalities much like M & I. Trouble is the very playful, cuddly cat like M and Gizzy is the one that has the more leave me the hell alone unless I come to you attitude much like me. (The reason I am posting this is I am trying to delay my wedding preparation duties of calling the caterer back!)

My Engagement Ring... Again

Sorry I am just so excited about having my ring. I still can't believe I have gotten this far in my life. It seems like just yesterday when I started talking to M online, talking to him on the phone, finally meeting him, moving here, and now I am engaged to this great man. Yes, I am still in shock. We have discussed wedding dates and decided on May 27th. Which isn't very long away so I will be very busy making lots of plans, first on my list starting rounding the family together!

Wedding Dress Shopping

Wedding Dress Fittings

Today M's mom and I went out to find a wedding dress for me. Especially since the wedding is only in two months! I think I was slightly crazy for deciding to get married in May knowing I only had a couple months to plan everything. But I am getting it together (I think!) I picked this dress because it has everything I want in wedding dress and it was fairly inexpensive for a wedding dress (yes, I am bargain shopper). This dress has everything I want button down and tie down, a-line, long, and nice train. I am starting to feel like a Queen. Be prepared M to spoil me like the Queen I am! Anyways M's mom thought that this dress was a great pick as well. I hate that my family is three hours away but M's family has been doing a great job of accepting me and helping me do what I need to do. I can truly call them family.

Engagement Ring

Here is my engagement ring. M proposed to me last month but we hadn't decided on a ring until now. I guess this makes it "official" and now the chapter of my life of "starting a new life" is over and now I am an "engaged woman." Everything has seemed to happen to fast I am caught in a whirlwind and it doesn't seem to slow down. I am so in love I don't think I could possibly love anyone as much as I could love M.

Life As I Know It Is Changing...

This morning my life changed dramatically. This morning when I woke up I awoke to a very awake M (which is very abnormal)! I rolled over and turned to him asking him what he was doing. His reply "watching you sleep so peacefully, your always a gorgeous angel when you are asleep." Which I thought was really sweet! Then he said "people always say if you can see how beautiful your significant other is when they are awake and you love how beautiful they are when their mascara is smeared, makeup wearing off, and hair standing up that you could definately marry them." At this point a million thoughts were going through my head, I asked myself if he was going to ask me to marry him and I thought no he wouldn't do that while we were laying in bed and dismissed it and thought it was just a conversation we were going to have. Then he said "S I love you so much and I think you are the most gorgeous when you just wake up with your glassy eyes and crazy hair. I could wake up to you for the rest of my life and be happy. Will you marry me?" Of course I immediately started to cry and say yes over and over again... So now the chapter in my life of Starting a new life has closed and I am starting a new chapter in my book... I am now a Level 2 commited person: an engaged one.

It's Official, I am Movin' On Out

Well, today is the day that I move out of my secure and cozy home that I have lived in since I was five years old. Its going to be weird living in a big city! I am 99.9% sure that I can handle living with M. I am sure there are going to be lots of interesting times with him after all he hasn't lived with anyone for six years and I have always had my parents so I could be a little bit more lazy then I can be now. Poor M he is going to have to experience my "cooking" and learning how to cook better and all my OCD rituals. I hope he can handle it, I have told him about these things and every weekend he has gotten to witness these events but he hasn't lived with it, so this could get very interesting. Well, its time for me to put my big girl panties on and walk the road less traveled by my family (which is move out and stay out of mommy's & daddy's), I am scared of failure and determined not to.

Happy Birthday!

Happy 27th Birthday M!

Twenty seven years ago M was brought into this world. Of course I didn't know him then and I wish I did from the stories his mom has told me. He was the the little boy on Rugrats, Tommy that literally had a screwdriver in his diaper and carried a hammer around. At five months of age he learned how to take his crib apart and get out of it. At nine months he was walking and was a crazy boy on wheels. I listen to this stories that his mother tells me and they are absolutely hilarious. I am very happy to know this man and spend my life with him. Happy Birthday Sweetheart!

The Beginning of the Mismatch Family

I did what I never thought I would do. I begun to move out of my parents house. As I made my trip to big city Kansas (a 2 1/2 hour drive) I reminisced about all my memories I have had with my parents by my side, there sure have been a lot of good times and bad times at my home. Now its time for me to move on to my new house and make it my home. One memory that sticks so vividly in my head right now is when I was packing up all my decorations of my room into a box and my mom just standing there... crying. It hurt so bad to pack up everything that I had accumulated over the years but I knew it was the right thing to do. It was time for me to begin my own life, begin my own family, and experience life. So here is to new beginnings!